I looked over at Kyle with pride in his face as he watched his brother. I couldn't contain my emotions. Through the tears I watched Dillon and cheered him on. They gave out awards to some of the top cadets and time seemed to stand still. What took 45 minutes felt like hours. He was merely feet away, but I had to wait. I had to be disciplined and patient...a small taste of Dillon's new life. And then.....they were dismissed. Kyle reached his brother first. I watched my two boys embrace and there are no words to describe the joy and pride I felt as their mother.
Then, it was my turn to hold my boy in my arms....the first time in 8 long weeks!! I didn't want to let go. I wanted to hold onto him forever.
I knew, at some point, I had to let go....I had to let Dillon stand on his own. I no longer stood before a boy....I now stood next to a young man. It was incredible to spend the next 5 hours with Dillon and hear his stories and experiences. He was still Dillon, only better. The entitled, smart-ass that we sent in to GYA 8 weeks prior, had turned into a kind, respectful, very likable soul. He shared his stories of his time at the academy and the many things he had learned. We laughed, we cried, we sat on the edge of our seats waiting to hear the next tale. Dillon spoke as I had never heard before. He was animated, engaging, and confident. It was a true joy to experience.
Now, unlike before, the time flew. The hours felt like mere minutes. We ate together, we laughed together, we took lots of pictures, and we all took in the experience. As the 4:00 hour drew closer, I could feel the anxiety in myself as well as in Dillon. He still struggles being at GYA, but ensures me that he is in it for the long haul. At one time, he even said that he wanted to return next year as a volunteer for Class 26's Family Day.
The dreaded announcement was made....all cadets were ordered back into formation. We all walked him back and I stole every moment to hug him and tell him how proud I was. He fell into formation and we watched as he marched back to his barracks....back to the place that he now calls home. I left renewed yet sad that I had to say goodbye. Now the next countdown begins. In 4 weeks I will be on my way back down to SLO to pick up Dillon for the weekend. His first leave to come home. He will be with us for 4 days. I can't wait to see how he has grown and experience even more of the new Dillon. Regardless of how he does or doesn't change, I will always love him. Although he is now becoming a man, to me, he will always be my little boy.